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Dear Paa,

Since you left a lot has changed….

The world kept telling me:  when you lose a parent you get a God!!!

But I keep telling this world to stop feeding lies. When I lost a parent like you, I started a war against God. Honestly and humbly, God has so far been winning all the battles and tired now I have called for a truce. I am old now you see and have finally realized winning is overrated even if it is against God..

There have been many positive changes since you left. Indian Cricket team is stronger and there is a phenomenon called T-20 and IPL. One bad news though; Sachin Retired. Better movies are made today, kinds which would have reminded you of Gurudutt and Bimal Roy.

Incoming calls on cell phones are free now and outgoing is cheap thanks to crazy competition
The kind of cell phones made these days u wud not have believed. Although I still have your huge black Nokia size of a brick which costed a fortune. It is on my bedside near your photograph. Middle class started imagining cars other than Maruti Suzuki…

We have Facebook now where snap opinions are formed and judgments are passed. People have opinions on me and some have passed judgments on me as well. Yours was the only opinion that mattered and yours is the only judgment I am still scared of. I try to live up to the reputation of being your daughter but screw ups in my life are inevitable. The intensity of these screw ups is aggravated with your absence…

People no longer write letters and give cards on Father’s Day. They just tag their Dads. But don’t worry if you were around I would have written a letter like always (and also tagged u… I can’t help it… it is illness ). You would have liked Facebook. it’s a fun place to be on, away from reality. I spend most of my spare time here. The reality is still very hard for me. I know you would not have liked this, but my habit of running away from harsh truth has not changed. I will definitely try and put my feet on the ground and head out of clouds and do something worthwhile to make u proud.

I miss having u around when I see the world becoming so much fun and so colorful. Just the way u would have liked. Most of all, I miss having a good competition in sense of humor and writing skills department. People have everything but seem to have lost humor


It would have been fun if you were around. Now that I have a job and make ok money, I would have pampered u with really expensive gifts. Trust me when I say I can afford to. I m that grown up. I also know u wud have been crazy proud of me coz I can now buy things for you from my salary and not from money saved from pocket money. The truth is; I am always short on money. I fall short by 50 bucks a week, exact allowance I got from u…

The world is fun and more colorful but you not being part of it makes it empty and spoils the fun… you should have been around… not because I need you to take down God for me…. But only because I love you and I did not tell this to you enough when you were around…there are a lot of I love yous to say and not enough time to say it…. I hope people reading this learn from my mistake and say a lot of love yours while there is still time…
Taking down God along your side would have been another level of fun..Did I say Happy Father’s Day… can’t wait to see you again and settle scores with God….

 

Love n Hugs n Kisses…

Your Little Girl…

SmirkyFish

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